When it rains it pours! I have to tell you it really has been a tough month for me. Last week I lost a good friend to cancer and today I arrived 1 moment after my wonderful grandma took her last breath. I guess it is appropriate for me today that it is pouring down rain.
My grandma was a kind, gentle, and loving woman. I guess all grandmas are. I think it is in the grandma handbook they give out. I have more memories with her than time to share on this post. For over half of my life she was the only family that lived close to me. We spent every holiday and special occasion with her. My heart hurts so badly with the loss of such a wonderful person here on earth. The only comfort I can seem to get at this point is that now she is at peace and reunited with her loved ones. She went quickly and honestly looked more at peace today after her passing than she did yesterday. I left her home yesterday and knew in my heart somehow that it would be our last time to see each other at least for a while. It hurts badly but I know she is happy and would want us to move through our grief as well.
I sit now and stare at the rain pouring down out my window. I feel as if I have been kicked over and over but I know in my heart that I will keep getting up and keep putting one foot in front of the other. My heart aches for the loss of my grandma, but just as the rain makes things grow..I too will grow. Maybe instead of looking at the rain as something I wish to get rid of today, I should go out and enjoy the wondrous things that we get to see each day that we are blessed to be here! I think it is time for a good run in the rain! I spend too much time worrying about those things I can not change and today I am going to just enjoy what gifts I have been given today!
I hope that today everyone will take one moment out of there days to call someone important to them and share your love. You never know when the last time you talked will really be the "last" time you talk!
Let it rain!!!!
The Diary of the Bald Woman
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
Dear Sharon
Cancer took another life from this world and today I watch a friend be laid to rest. This letter is the one that she would never get to read........
Dear Sharon,
I just want you know that you have made a difference in lives of many including my own. When we met all those years ago I was afraid of you. (I know you are probably laughing hysterically now) I was a rookie supervisor and came into a group of seasoned and very opinionated teachers. :) I remember going home and thinking...."wow, what have I got myself into". At our first staff meeting things changed. I felt that you understood and agreed with my "laughter is the best bonding medicine". I did silly games and made sure we were all laughing and I felt like you understood. Those times at Head Start will be with me forever. There were many ups and many downs along our journey and I am thankful for all of them and know that I am better for having known you!
When you called me a few months back I was shocked and saddened by your new chapter of life that you would have to endure. After talking with you several times...I wasn't sad anymore because I knew that if anyone understood that "laughter is the best medicine" it was you! You of all people knew that a good attitude would take you further than any medicine. I am sure that every doc and nurse in that place knew your name! :) Each day that I watched you fight I was in awe of your courage and strength. Life doesn't always hand us the easiest of things to deal with but you handled it with a true "Sharon style"!
I am so thankful that I was able to see you the day you came home from the hospital to become under hospice care. I remember only wondering... why???? You told me that the doctors told you that the treatment options were over and there was nothing else to do. I asked you what you do with that kind of information baffled to hear this coming out of your mouth. Your response though was what I remember the most...you said, "You just keep your spirits as high as you can each day and trust that God has a plan for all of us". I am crying even as I type this because I struggle today thinking about this. I will do my best to live by this and know that you are right.
I heard the Bob Marley song, "Don't Worry about a thing" and I just imagine you up there with my grandpa looking down and telling me not to worry about anything. I am trying to understand the whys of this but I don't honestly think I am meant to....I know that there is a plan out there of each of us and I hope you can put in a good word with the big guy for me! :)
I will miss you greatly and until we meet again my friend................................
Love,
Holly
Dear Sharon,
I just want you know that you have made a difference in lives of many including my own. When we met all those years ago I was afraid of you. (I know you are probably laughing hysterically now) I was a rookie supervisor and came into a group of seasoned and very opinionated teachers. :) I remember going home and thinking...."wow, what have I got myself into". At our first staff meeting things changed. I felt that you understood and agreed with my "laughter is the best bonding medicine". I did silly games and made sure we were all laughing and I felt like you understood. Those times at Head Start will be with me forever. There were many ups and many downs along our journey and I am thankful for all of them and know that I am better for having known you!
When you called me a few months back I was shocked and saddened by your new chapter of life that you would have to endure. After talking with you several times...I wasn't sad anymore because I knew that if anyone understood that "laughter is the best medicine" it was you! You of all people knew that a good attitude would take you further than any medicine. I am sure that every doc and nurse in that place knew your name! :) Each day that I watched you fight I was in awe of your courage and strength. Life doesn't always hand us the easiest of things to deal with but you handled it with a true "Sharon style"!
I am so thankful that I was able to see you the day you came home from the hospital to become under hospice care. I remember only wondering... why???? You told me that the doctors told you that the treatment options were over and there was nothing else to do. I asked you what you do with that kind of information baffled to hear this coming out of your mouth. Your response though was what I remember the most...you said, "You just keep your spirits as high as you can each day and trust that God has a plan for all of us". I am crying even as I type this because I struggle today thinking about this. I will do my best to live by this and know that you are right.
I heard the Bob Marley song, "Don't Worry about a thing" and I just imagine you up there with my grandpa looking down and telling me not to worry about anything. I am trying to understand the whys of this but I don't honestly think I am meant to....I know that there is a plan out there of each of us and I hope you can put in a good word with the big guy for me! :)
I will miss you greatly and until we meet again my friend................................
Love,
Holly
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