Dear Cancer
Today I want to thank you. This thanks is for officially ruining my life. I am no longer the same person as was before that day you barged into my life. I am not the same time obsessed young adult trying to climb every ladder possible. I now spend my days thinking about others and how I can try to give them ladders to climb. Thanks alot for the fear that you have now permanently instilled into my brain and the thoughts that each day needs to be lived to the fullest because it could be my last. I am also so grateful for the side effects of the latest and greatest poisons in which I used to get rid of you. You take lives on a daily basis. You turn families upside down and make them worry when it is the last thing they need to do.
You have taken so much from me. You took my hair, my pride, my carefree life, and part of my body. You have left me with scars and memories of the time that we spent battling. That, I will never forget.
You may be strong, you may have power, and you may even take my life one day BUT you will not win. Not ever. I will fight every single day to keep you out of my life and I will not EVER let you take what makes me who I am. You can have my hair, you can have my pride, and you can have any body part you want. When you turned my life upside down you actually made it better. You gave me something that I am sure you didn't realize....Strength! The anger you caused my family is now nothing but fuel for my fight. The things you took from me are now my fire to help others fight. The things I lost will never be returned, but what I took from you was far more than you got from me!
Thanks,
Holly
The Diary of the Bald Woman
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Sunday, April 10, 2011
Where is my umbrella drink?
When I think of Spring Break I think of a week long party in Cancun. I think of fun in the sun and umbrella drinks. I think of good times and not a care in the world.
Well....that is NOT the reality that I got on my spring break this year. here are the highlights.....
DAY 1: (This was actually the Friday before every one's week off) This was filled with good times and carpet being ripped up out of my living room. Lucky for us our dogs had helped tremendously with this project in the previous weeks. They had even disposed of some of the carpet pad by eating it and scattering it all over house. They are just so helpful. Who says puppies are a lot of work? They just don't know how helpful they are. (now maybe all the holes in the back yard are them "helping" to dig that pool I wanted!
DAY 2: My husband insists the floor will be completed. This is great because the carpet was ripped out and we got to move furniture back onto the BEAUTIFUL concrete sub floor for the evening of Day 1. No great project is completed without any problems (well at least nothing that makes it on this blog!) so end of day 2....only half complete.
DAY 3: Floors have to be done today because my husband has to go back to work on Monday and I am not living in this crazy house with stuff everywhere any longer!!!! AHH the mess is making me crazy. Finally late on Day 3....FINALLY COMPLETE! I should have realized at this point that this spring break was not going to be relaxing or filled with fun in the sun! Gonna order that umbrella drink now!
DAY 4: Feeling like I have been hit by a truck on this morning but push that aside and truck through a day of catch up. Who has time to feel sick when you have so much to do. Laundry, tons of cleaning from the 3 day dust bowl that we had over the weekend, and Friends of the Bald Woman stuff that I have not had time for when I go to work. Waited a while for the umbrella drinks to come...but the never did!
DAY 5: Doctor time! Feeling even worse than before. A big thanks to a great friend who took my kids so I can finally go see a doctor. I feel terrible at this point. I can hardly speak which makes yelling at my kids very difficult ( :) just kidding- I don't EVER yell at my kids. What kind of mom does that??) Apparently when you are "pushing aside" a sickness for the 10 days prior, that leads to an ear and sinus infection with a side order of bronchitis....where is that umbrella drink????
DAY 6: Watch out world I am back in the land of the living!!! Feeling like a champ today! This day is a bit crazy though. Unexpected financial burdens crept their heads into our home on this day and it was one of those "tomorrow will be a better day" kind of days. I just ignored the stuff that was unimportant and tried to enjoy the beautiful day outside fully loaded with a hail storm at the end of the day! Really need the umbrella drink today!
DAY 7: This was by far the highlight! Started with my radio debut on 2 radio stations. Yes I am a local celeb now! Paparazzi are camped outside my house and it is just crazy! We had a great time at the radio station on and off air. The day gets better because I came home and then headed off to the 2nd FBW calendar photo shoot. This 16 year old gal is so amazing. She has battled, beat, and taken names on her cancer and is beautiful on the outside as well as the inside. Her shoot was amazing and did not produce one bad picture. I am so fortunate to have the best Make up artist in town (DOLLS) who happens to be my sister and I have the best photographer in town (Andrea Starr). they make this project effortless! Still no umbrella drink, maybe I should order another one???
DAY 8: Slumber party. My son had a friend over and we packed up lunch and went down to the park and had a picnic. Fun in the sun, finally! Wait spring break is over in a few days...thoughts of work begin to flood my head. Now I really need this umbrella drink and I am beginning to get irritated that the resort is so slow and not bringing it.???
DAY 9: Watched my husband tackle home improvement project # 2 (spreading 3 yards of rock) He trucked it up a very steep driveway about 100 times to move some to the back yard. This rock will surely keep my dogs who are obsessed with a gopher that lives in our back yard from digging too much right??? No, the answer is already NO!
This day also brings the fun outing of taking my daughter to the walk in doctor because the two of us slept on the couch that night before. Well slept is what I call it but actually sleeping was limited. Within a few hours of receiving this antibiotic she was a new girl! The grumpy, whiny, and tearful toddler was soon replaced by a bossy attitude filled smile! Ohhhh, so glad all is back to normal. Now where is that umbrella drink? Still....nothing
DAY 10: This is it. Life officially goes back to normal tomorrow and I reflect upon my 10 days off. There were no vacations, no weekend trips, and really we didn't even leave the city. Most would chalk this up to a bum spring break. Me...I say it was exactly what I needed, minus the umbrella drink. That I am still waiting for!
It's all about how we look at things right :)
Well....that is NOT the reality that I got on my spring break this year. here are the highlights.....
DAY 1: (This was actually the Friday before every one's week off) This was filled with good times and carpet being ripped up out of my living room. Lucky for us our dogs had helped tremendously with this project in the previous weeks. They had even disposed of some of the carpet pad by eating it and scattering it all over house. They are just so helpful. Who says puppies are a lot of work? They just don't know how helpful they are. (now maybe all the holes in the back yard are them "helping" to dig that pool I wanted!
DAY 2: My husband insists the floor will be completed. This is great because the carpet was ripped out and we got to move furniture back onto the BEAUTIFUL concrete sub floor for the evening of Day 1. No great project is completed without any problems (well at least nothing that makes it on this blog!) so end of day 2....only half complete.
DAY 3: Floors have to be done today because my husband has to go back to work on Monday and I am not living in this crazy house with stuff everywhere any longer!!!! AHH the mess is making me crazy. Finally late on Day 3....FINALLY COMPLETE! I should have realized at this point that this spring break was not going to be relaxing or filled with fun in the sun! Gonna order that umbrella drink now!
DAY 4: Feeling like I have been hit by a truck on this morning but push that aside and truck through a day of catch up. Who has time to feel sick when you have so much to do. Laundry, tons of cleaning from the 3 day dust bowl that we had over the weekend, and Friends of the Bald Woman stuff that I have not had time for when I go to work. Waited a while for the umbrella drinks to come...but the never did!
DAY 5: Doctor time! Feeling even worse than before. A big thanks to a great friend who took my kids so I can finally go see a doctor. I feel terrible at this point. I can hardly speak which makes yelling at my kids very difficult ( :) just kidding- I don't EVER yell at my kids. What kind of mom does that??) Apparently when you are "pushing aside" a sickness for the 10 days prior, that leads to an ear and sinus infection with a side order of bronchitis....where is that umbrella drink????
DAY 6: Watch out world I am back in the land of the living!!! Feeling like a champ today! This day is a bit crazy though. Unexpected financial burdens crept their heads into our home on this day and it was one of those "tomorrow will be a better day" kind of days. I just ignored the stuff that was unimportant and tried to enjoy the beautiful day outside fully loaded with a hail storm at the end of the day! Really need the umbrella drink today!
DAY 7: This was by far the highlight! Started with my radio debut on 2 radio stations. Yes I am a local celeb now! Paparazzi are camped outside my house and it is just crazy! We had a great time at the radio station on and off air. The day gets better because I came home and then headed off to the 2nd FBW calendar photo shoot. This 16 year old gal is so amazing. She has battled, beat, and taken names on her cancer and is beautiful on the outside as well as the inside. Her shoot was amazing and did not produce one bad picture. I am so fortunate to have the best Make up artist in town (DOLLS) who happens to be my sister and I have the best photographer in town (Andrea Starr). they make this project effortless! Still no umbrella drink, maybe I should order another one???
DAY 8: Slumber party. My son had a friend over and we packed up lunch and went down to the park and had a picnic. Fun in the sun, finally! Wait spring break is over in a few days...thoughts of work begin to flood my head. Now I really need this umbrella drink and I am beginning to get irritated that the resort is so slow and not bringing it.???
DAY 9: Watched my husband tackle home improvement project # 2 (spreading 3 yards of rock) He trucked it up a very steep driveway about 100 times to move some to the back yard. This rock will surely keep my dogs who are obsessed with a gopher that lives in our back yard from digging too much right??? No, the answer is already NO!
This day also brings the fun outing of taking my daughter to the walk in doctor because the two of us slept on the couch that night before. Well slept is what I call it but actually sleeping was limited. Within a few hours of receiving this antibiotic she was a new girl! The grumpy, whiny, and tearful toddler was soon replaced by a bossy attitude filled smile! Ohhhh, so glad all is back to normal. Now where is that umbrella drink? Still....nothing
DAY 10: This is it. Life officially goes back to normal tomorrow and I reflect upon my 10 days off. There were no vacations, no weekend trips, and really we didn't even leave the city. Most would chalk this up to a bum spring break. Me...I say it was exactly what I needed, minus the umbrella drink. That I am still waiting for!
It's all about how we look at things right :)
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