Let it Rain

When it rains it pours!  I have to tell you it really has been a tough month for me. Last week I lost a good friend to cancer and today I arrived 1 moment after my wonderful grandma took her last breath. I guess it is appropriate for me today that it is pouring down rain.

My grandma was a kind, gentle, and loving woman. I guess all grandmas are. I think it is in the grandma handbook they give out. I have more memories with her than time to share on this post. For over half of my life she was the only family that lived close to me. We spent every holiday and special occasion with her. My heart hurts so badly with the loss of such a wonderful person here on earth. The only comfort I can seem to get at this point is that now she is at peace and reunited with her loved ones. She went quickly and honestly looked more at peace today after her passing than she did yesterday. I left her home yesterday and knew in my heart somehow that it would be our last time to see each other at least for a while. It hurts badly but I know she is happy and would want us to move through our grief as well.

I sit now and stare at the rain pouring down out my window. I feel as if I have been kicked over and over but I know in my heart that I will keep getting up and keep putting one foot in front of the other. My heart aches for the loss of my grandma, but just as the rain makes things grow..I too will grow. Maybe instead of looking at the rain as something I wish to get rid of today, I should go out and enjoy the wondrous things that we get to see each day that we are blessed to be here! I think it is time for a good run in the rain! I spend too much time worrying about those things I can not change and today I am going to just enjoy what gifts I have been given today!

I hope that today everyone will take one moment out of there days to call someone important to them and share your love. You never know when the last time you talked will really be the "last" time you talk!

Let it rain!!!!